Hello again. :)

I believe I'm well on my way to becoming an honourary Brit. I know, I know, most of my North American acquaintances who have spent as much time as I have with individuals of the British persuasion, can say the same. But my first thought this morning, was this: I'm still so tired, but I have to get up, and I wonder how long I have to be conscious before I'm allowed to have a kip. A KIP !!!!! How British and wonderful is that! Also, since I woke up, I've already thought of such words as 'chuffed', 'loo', 'daft', 'uber', etc etc. Since meeting some of my friends from abroad, I think I've opened myself up to a whole new and much wider vocabulary. Anyhow, I was thinking about that and I thought I'd share it. It's fairly wet outside, so I think I'll make sure and put on my 'wellies' before going out. *cracks up unceremoniously* 

Also, if you've been wondering where I'm at, or why I haven't been on MSN for ages, it's because I'm taking a bit of a break from things. If you haven't been wondering, just carry on about your daily activities. But you, an addict to MSN and all things chat-related, how can you possibly go a day, an hour, a minute without MSN, you ask. Well, I've re-discovered a old online passion of mine - Yahoo Pool. And that, has been keeping me busy. My rating, for those of you who know anything about Yahoo Pool, is something like 1350, which is high for me, and it's like gambling, in my opinion. I play to get a higher rating, all the while risking my rating being lowered if I lose.. it's really quite fascinating...not. :) But I like it.

I've been thinking to myself about how boring my existence must seem. I mean, I'm fairly happy about what I do and don't do on a daily basis, until someone random comes up to me and asks me, always while I'm not at school, "what are you doing these days?" And then I have to explain that I don't do very much outside of housework and reading and things that I generally enjoy. But I quickly add that I'm returning to university in the fall, so that they don't just assume I'm wasting my life. It always seems to satisfy their curiosity. I don't know if anyone else has noticed or realised this, but being asked what you do, while you're not doing anything, can be somewhat embarrassing. I was talking to a friend of mine today about how what you do, job-wise, shouldn't always define who you are, but sometimes, to some people, it does. At this point in my life, I take a job to make extra money.. it in no way means that that is who I am, or who I'll always be. Last summer, I took a job cleaning hotel rooms, but I wouldn't go around telling people I'm a maid, because that's not who I am. It's fine if that's who *you* are, and if you feel that's who you are, but if it's not, don't let yourself be branded. I certainly don't intend to let that happen to me! Anyway, that's a bit of a rant. All I really wanted to announce here, is that I'm considering taking up Karate. Now, all of you who feel the need to laugh, please just go right ahead and then I'll carry on with my news. Done? All out of your system? Sure? Great. I realise that you have to be fit and things to do Karate, and that's fine. But you know, if it's something I really want to do, there's no reason why I can't get fit to do it, or fit while doing it. I think it would help me get some aggression out of my system, because believe it or not, if you don't catch me on a really good day, I may very well feel like hurting someone. Not necessarily you, but someone. Maybe someday I'll get down to the nitty gritty and assess my anger and why it's there, but for now I'm just excited about Karate!!! I think it would make me seem and feel a lot more interesting as well. I'm generally happy with myself, but the thing is, sometimes people catch you off guard and ask you questions: What are you working at? What are you studying? What are your plans for the future? etc etc. and if you can't answer some of those questions, it makes you wonder, well, it makes me wonder, if the life you're living is really everything it could be. I don't know how that comes to equal me doing Karate, but there you go. I may start next month, I may start next year, I may never start. But for right now, at this moment in time, I want somebody to share with me in the thought and excitement of taking Karate lessons.

Thank you for listening. :P

xxxxx

Bex